i been friends with him sine 4th grade and we hangout everyday after school
and he was a charming guy he would treat me like i belonged and i wasn't alone
when i first came to where i live i didn't know anyone and i felt like i was alone but when i met him i didn't feel that way
and we dated in junior high and everything went okay i guess but then i met another guy when i was in 4th grade and he liked me too and i didn't know what to do i had 2 guys liking me at once it was like a love triangle and it was frusting for me cuz i am a girl that can only have one bf and not have 2 bf. so in high school i made the biggest mistake in my entire life i CHEATED on him with my other friend and i feel really bad about it and i have been looking for a bf ever since but i will never get one i still love my ex bf because he is the one that i can talk about anything and he would understand and support me no matter what but now i have this empy hole in my chest and it would never heal and i have to except that he is gone and move on.